OZ NZ...nz? oz?

Where do I see myself next year? Nz or aussie? If Nz, out of auckland? or where? Welly? Christchurch? Wa... I dunno...?! One thing I do know... I don't wanna be stuck in one place like forever. I want to be able to travel abit, change working environments.. A job that moves me around abit, that would be fun..heehe. A few consulting companies are really tempting, they have offices in NZ, Aussie, UK n such... even Msia! And it's interesting to note that the first graduate application I sent in last week was an Aussie firm, no office in Nz at all...is it a good idea?

Waa waaa waaaa...when's my turn?

Graduation coming, friends' parents filing thru the customs within these 2 weeks..so niceee... At this point, i cant see my graduation moments yet.. it's been blocked by those damn PROJECT WORK...urgh! Disgusted! Friends back in msian Uni's are also finishing soon... oh man, when's my turn ?! GG~~ I can't wait to get into the working life... i think? Lol...

Camp : Refocus...

Probably a decision I made without a sense of expectancy on the impactful-ness of retreat camps...Even though I started off wrong, God didn't just let me pass Him by. Smwhr, smhow, very gently, I was prompted to refocus on the main Star - my dearest Friend throughout all times : distress and rejoicing, confusion and chaos, leisure and serenity, sports and meals. =]

"Why don't you focus on Me?"

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I was like 'ooops'. Obviously I had issues swimming around in my head la har. It was such a timely wake-up call. It came like a refreshing spray of morning dew that lifted me from my state of 'drunkenness'-that state of entanglement in my swamp of issues. Such great impact from such few words - that could only have come from my Daddy above

The balancing act

It just doesn't work. You know, the ideal stance that lets you get the best out of both worlds(or more) doesn't exist. And the person bearing the most damage is your own self. Sad aye. Even sadder when people start judging you when they realised you couldn't really match up to the expectations they have of you in that 'world'. But wait, I was assured differently when I 'entered into that world'. I didn't know I was subject to those 'extra' expectations...aihh,now say so much also no use ...tired la... Can I just slowly and discreetly and peacefully disappear from the act of juggling?

2nd time!?!?!

Argghhh... false alarm.. pagi pagi buta!! Goodness gracious flipping annoying!!!! Mind you..2nd time already... The first was around 3am, yesterday it was 5am+ ZZzzzzz. They need better electrical engineers for the design of the fire detectors/sensors..seriously..lol

You blow my mind..anytime

O God, You amaze me. Even when I'm fully aware of what You are capable of, You still amaze me. I wasn't even expecting, asking or needing it, yet it was given. What abundance! Now it got me wondering, why me? There are so many more deserving people out there...

Earlier on I was just telling you, evangelism is so Your problem, not mine. Why am I still doing it? Your problem wor, getting to the people. Why do I have to deal with Your problem?

And later after the session was over, and You knew I didn't handle it as well as I would like to. You heard me saying, it is Your problem after all, not mine. But I still do it, You know, I am doing Your problem, W-H-Y ar? But instantly I know, it's because I want to do it, for You, as simple as that. And I know You are bigger than my mistake, and surely You wont let my dumbness foil Your plans.

So I guess, the reason You pour out that abundance of blessing,when I don't even need it, is simply because You want to do it, for me. I'm awed.